war doesn't determine who's right,











37 out of 54 killed are children




it determines who's left. ..




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we are self-destructive.
destroying our very own world.
the more we advance, the stupid-er we get.
"we" refers to us humans. mankind. homosapiens for those who believe in evolution.
everybody's gunning for peace, so..
what's with the nuclear plants?
the arms race?
unnecessary warfare. ..?
1 step forward, 3 steps back. ..
might as well go back to world war and live in slow motion. ..

how stupid can we get - really?
i believe this is what you get when morons are appointed as leaders. ..

-JUST STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE-
i'd die now if only i've repent

i wonder what telah happened. ..
i can feel my patience slowly seepin' out of me. ..
with bits of anger creeping up from nowhere. ..
temperament pushing patience out of its way. ..

life goes round in circles. ..
maybe it's just that. ..
going back to how it was before. how I was. ..

Let's gO RouNd AgaIn, sHall wE - ?

what's holding me back? it's another issue.

flattened.

i'm tired.

tired of being tired. ..
tired of bein' lethargic. ..

tired of doing the same things everyday. ..
over and over again. ..

tired of the bad news around the world. ..
this is when "no news is good news" comes good. ..

tired of the wars caused by ego and greed
stupidity and ignorance of assholes who are supposedly the "leaders" of the people. ..

tired of replayin' what's passed..
tired of looking ahead. ..
tired of bein' here in the present. ..


but, somehow..
i'm not tired of livin'. ..

i'm just tired.

.. the heart beats slowly & the mind so blurry. ..

fuckstration

it happened again.
same day.
same person.

see entry on Friday, June 02.

the difference is..
the princess is now a groupmate.
i wasn't goin to & i didn't give her what she wanted..
it's time she learn things the hard way. ..

fuckstration sank in when she made a big fuss out of nothin'..
no brainer.. -dUh- she always do that.
fuckstation escalated when she just didn't know how to shut up. ..
i was told i looked flushed(all red)..
nobody's listening alrite. just shut the fuck up la. ..



and to the rest of the class, especially lepak crew..
i'm sorry if i had dampen your mood. ..
my apologies.

my mood isn't right when i'm sick, it seems. ..

oh yea. .. i screwd up my Jammers audition. ..

. ..and so dir had a bad day.

Presenting: The Lepak Kakis @ Holland V

pardon the resolution alrite.

N.Joy. ..

part 1.




part 2.




cheers~!!

p/s: 1 more vid wif better res. to be uploaded. ..

1 less reason to smile

gramma still in hospital.
hate myself 4 not being able to visit her.
prayin she'll be fine.
her 70th birthday is coming soon. REAL s0on..

.. .i want to
. ..i need to
...but
for i am afraid
thy shalt speak when thee right time comes a-rolling.
-i anyhow hentam one-
haha.. i see my humor's still intact.

yet again. ..
awaken from my night nap (wtf??) by the sound of trouble. ..
MY trouble..
this the 1 less reason to smile. ..

- 1 less reason to sMiLe don't mean you have to frown -

Live & Let Die

woke up to the sound of a man desperately tryin to save his relationship. ..
i don't know if he succeeded or not.

woke up clueless. ..
wondering what i am and was supposed to do.
RJ - Gone. 2 weeks running.
STA mentorship - e Last one later.

havin a bitter-sweet emotion.
illness. hospitalisation. school-related activities.
leading people to think i couldn't care less. ..
yet.. life's colorful with so much goin for me. ..
by so much, i mean not much.

troubled sanctuary.
sorry "amk" for beating you.
thanks for letting me to.

i have reasons to frown & cry.
but i chose to laugh & smile.
'cause to live is better than to die. ..

with every ending. there's a new beginning.

mine ended long ago. so where's the new start?

SMILE

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

-smile and the world smiles with you-

HUGS - everyone needs one.

- pokes blister on foot..
blister poked..
squeeze blister-water out..
wipes fingers on shorts.. -

everyone has got their own secrets to keep. to share. to ponder. ..
whatever it is.. we never will run out of it.
i wonder..

i've got secrets that needs to be shared.
with anyone who's there to even care. ..

i don't know why.
maybe i do. ..
i feel like walking..
walking..
walking..
walking away. ..

there's no need to hear, to know. ..
i see to feel.
these broken thoughts. ..
i want to kill.

here's a song to sing.
lyrics to read.
for everyone to lighten your soul. ..

Smile by Frank Sinatra.

till next time.
startin' to hallucinate. ..
too tired..




-for.i.am.afraid-

I am One

Doing what others do best:
It's been long since my last update. Been busy, or rather, lazy. LOL.

Apologies. But the above is invading the blogging world by storm.

Ok. Back to serious stuff.. chey.. since when only i serious..

World Cup Semis: Watched NONE of it!!

Emo: "Die" here. "Die" there. Wanna die just die lah.
i'm not against the emo concept. just those "emo" fags. .. they irate me. - menyampah I.

STA mentorship Project Joy is wearing me out. Fatigue sinks in. It'll be over soon. Thank God.

Which means.. Lepak Kakis - I Can Lepak Again.SOON!

I GOT INTO JAMMERS!! but.. only 1st round..
my joy is shortlived. now it's become a worry for me. i've got little confidence.
2 weeks to audition (20th July). got no place to jam. Help?

Life in RP is a joy. But then, when there's too much joy, it's a joy no more.

I'm just having a burnout. Apologies if I had hurt anyone for the past many days. Apologies if I wasn't nice to you. Sorry.

I'm giving 'Hug coupons' to all.
No expiry. Ask & I'll give..
'cos I think maybe I need one too.

"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something that I can do."

~Edmund Everett Hale, writer